i was following behind my husband, roderick, in my car to our next destination. it was around 2:30 in the morning on sunday and we were exhausted. slightly stressed out. slightly worried about the unknown. but ready. we were both. ready. i was following behind him and i noticed he kept swerving. i'd call and make sure he wasn't falling asleep. he'd say he wasn't. i'd say "okay, we're almost there." the city began to fade away and the fields became wider. less buildings, more fields. we were watching the sky at the same time without even knowing it.
and then i saw a shooting star. i thought i had seen one before but something different happened: it completely disappeared into the deep blue-black sky. i thought it was a plane but the lights didn't keep flashing. it was gone. i turned my music off and began to speak to the ancestors. to the spirits. to our lost heroes.
i couldn't believe something as magical as this had happened exactly one day before roderick and i would begin a six-month journey to experience the world. together. it seemed too good to be true. i wondered if he saw it. i wondered if i had even really seen it. but i couldn't wait until we arrived at our destination so i could tell him what i thought i saw.
we arrived. i parked. i hopped out. "did you see that shooting star?" we both asked, childlike excitement laced in both of our voices. so, the magic was real. and he had just confirmed it. i looked up and the sky was full of stars. more vivid and more clear than i think i had ever seen them before.
i hadn't asked for a sign. i became too caught up in the fear and the excitement and the anxiety and the anticipation and the worry. i didn't ask for the universe or my ancestors to bless me with something... anything that would let me know that we were being protected on this journey. until tonight. and we witnessed it. separately.
but together. oh, the odds.
it says that shooting stars represent new beginnings. a new chapter in your life. a fresh page. we embark on the new chapter of our lives today. i think about what this journey is going to teach us about each other: because we thought we knew everything. i think about what this journey is going to do to the love we already have for each other: because i thought it couldn't get any deeper. i couldn't have asked for a better love/better partner to share this experience with. i think about how this journey is going to enhance our individual life walks. how it's going to heighten our self-awareness.
a shooting star: a wink. or a sigh of content. or a smirk. or a prayer. or a hallelujah. or an amen. or a blessing. or a spell. or a promise. or a shield. or a sign that everything, yes, everything would be alright. that the journey will be complicated at times but beautiful. but worth it.
love + an over-abundance of light,
photo: jessica christie